This post is regarding something that has recently occurred in my life and I honestly can’t stop smiling because of it. It is part of my list of things I wanted to alter in my life. My own self-improvement plan. Because of it, the smiles have outweighed the (unhappy) tears, the laughter has banished the anger, and conversations have filled the silence. What is it, you may ask? God.
I was raised Catholic. I’ve always had a firm belief in God. But I’ll be honest, growing up I was more of a “Sunday Catholic.” Not that I was a rebellious teenager: I’ve never smoked, consumed alcohol, done drugs of any kind, or slept around. However, within the Church I never…felt alive. I didn’t grow up in a family that said grace before meals. I never really prayed at all. I just went to Mass and tried to be a good kid. My faith was always there, but there was so much I wasn’t doing to strengthen it and profess it.
Abraham is a Christian who is very involved in his Church. He plays guitar and bass in the Youth Group band and he is one of the Youth Group leaders. He comes from a very devoted family who actively participate in Bible Study and the Church.
Abraham and I have always had God in our relationship but it wasn’t until recently that we centralized him within it. Before, we never went to service together or prayed together. Recently though, we’ve started attending the same service together. It has really helped me become closer to God. Before, I used to go to Mass and (like a lot of people) just went through the motions. The Word never hit me.
That is, until this Group. Weekly, I find myself being impacted by what is preached. I find myself reading my Bible more and more and studying it. Before, I never read the Bible and was ashamed at how lost I was when people would quote scripture. Now, I find myself praying a lot more.
The most interesting change I’ve seen is that if I do something wrong (cuss, get angry, etc.) I find myself being aware of it almost immediately. Not that I have a sailors mouth but I would say a cuss word here and there and I would just glaze over it. Now if I say it, I’ve begun to correct myself and feel guilty for it. I love that I am noticing change.
This change has done wonders for my relationship with Abraham. I love going to Service with him and being able to share that time with him. I can’t tell you how blessed I feel being able to Worship with him. It has brought us so much closer! Before I was terrible at communicating. If I was angry, I was the Queen Bee of the silent treatment. I just couldn’t bring myself to talk. Now, that barrier is completely gone. I am not as angry of a person as I used to be. I am so much happier. This change has affected not only myself, but Abraham too. I can tell he is so much happier. Being able to share this and love God together as a couple has completely altered our relationship for the better.
Sarandipitous 